What was the worst moment of your life so far?!
Question: Losing my husband to cancer 5 years ago....
Answers: Losing my husband to cancer 5 years ago....
when my brother was killed
When I got in trouble at school.
when i found out my father died
i'm trying to forget it
I was going to answer this seriously until I saw the answer about cutting the arm shaving...then I just couldn't top that....
When my dad died. He was a part of my life!!<3
the last 8 years of my life - i had a corn allergy, didnt know what was making me sick. Now im getting better. A very very long moment.
ummmm i've had so many. People close to me die all the time for some reason: my aunt's death, my granfathers' deaths, finding out about my brother's illness, my best friend's death...etc etc
When my best friend and girlfriend of 8 months, committed suicide together.
My friend dying of a mytral valve prolapse at 19yrs old. Then losing my 17yr old brother to suicide less than a year later.
Death of a parent
when i had too sit in front of the cool people in science and i sated to sweat and blush exsessivley over my whole body for no reason every lesson. i used too have a severe blushing problem my whole face wud go red for the whole school day. and my back wud be dripping in sweat.
It was like being in hells fires with everyone watching me so helpless.
uh theres a tie between 2, when my 4yr relationship was up, and when my cat was given away to an animal shelter by my x-bf and given away, and now I cant ever see her, and it still makes me cry and im prolly going to cry about it now, i miss her.
losing my soul mate
when i born
When I learned my dad was going to die--it will be 11 years ago next month. (Rough month there between Thanksgiving when he got sick and right after Christmas when he died).
when i can't poop....
When my now ex-husband moved out. He spent all day looking at the newspaper for apartments and calling around. Then he took his crap and left. I cried all night, the first night. And that was the last time I ever cried over him. Screw him.
when i almost bled to death 4 years ago.
When my mom forced me to marry a 37 yrs old man (who is 15 yrs older than me)...for the record, i didn't married that "fat rat".
When my grandma died of cancer.
More of moments, these are the only ones I remember:
- Late 1999 through mid-2000 something bad happened...
- When -he- died.
- When my father disowned me.
everything....cant pick
That moment was on July 28th of 2005 when I held my father as he died in my arms of lung cancer. He had so much more to do and to say, and we as a family had things we wanted to discuss and continue discussing for years to come. He was a bright light in my world, and I am a Daddy's girl, so you can imagine how difficult it was to let him go with grace and dignity.
when my husband went to prison
I ran into a financial hardship, and my daughter was 4 at the time. I did not have any food in the house, and the electric had gotten turned off. My car repossessed that night. I got up that morning and I had to walk with my little girl in the cold to her father's family's house...she looked up at me, and told me she was hungry. I had nothing to give her. I called my parents to ask if I could live with them, because I had finally left the man they were against me marrying, my mother asked me if there was not some type of salvation army I could go to, her words or my daughter's words....I don't know which were worse, but they happened on the same day. 12 years ago, and yes it made me bitter, but it made me stronger, my daughter will never have to utter those words again. Not a pity story...honest truth.
I failed my high school because I just don't like what I was studying. I like computer science and I am good at it; however, I didn't get into computer science in my home country due to strong competition that were weighed on all subjects in school, not just computer science. Thus, I was forced to study chemistry, then I failed my high school. As the result, I stay at home for four months doing nothing. I was unemployed with no school. I felt that I was not up to my potential. I was angry with the entire world. I was depressed. I didn't talk to my parents because I hate them at that moment. I locked myself in the room. I was young and the world seems to determine the rest of my life is useless. It was not fair. I know that. I have suffered.
My parents finally gave up their objections for me studying computer science at Spring 2003. I am now a senior computer science student in the US. However, I feel severe fatigue now. There is so much work to do for classes. My school works go downward right now because in the senior year the work are very hard. This is harder then my junior year. In one particular class which is suppose to be hard, my professor said that if anyone correctly answers one question that is marked "hard" in any of his exams, that student would get an A immediately. There is a lot of stress. I went to counseling center of the school a few times and I found of their advice/help is still very limited. I am still counting on them. They assume I am going to kill someone or myself, actually far away from it. What I need is a mentor. Now something is just out of place. I need to fix it. I know I can handle it. For a lot of my problems, I believe that I am the key to the solution. So, work frigging hard.
I fight for what I am meant to be. I am seeking my life. I feel belong to the geek community a lot. This is part of my life. For school, may be I need to have more time to catch up. I can be very expressive if I spend more time on this. May be talking it out loud may help a bit.
Sigh.
I have wished all of you to be well being, have good health, and you are able to find your life. Please think of me, and I am thinking of you guys right now. May you have your precious goals fulfilled and delineate the purpose of your life.
Just now.
I cut my arm shaving. =(