Chopin, nocturne, ideas?!

Chopin, nocturne, ideas?

While playing nocturne 20, I sort of had these ideas, like the song was talking to me sort of, or something. Not in a crazy way or anything. But anyway, I tried to write down the ideas, and it turned out kind of like poetry, in a stupid, strange way. Without being too judgmental, what do you think?

its hard
but i see
a loss
but i see

yes
is there anything to say but yes?
what if?
but ive learned not to hope such

yes
theres nothing to say but yes
and no pont in refusal

yes im stuck with its truth
but why?
what if i do refuse?

what if?

This happens to me from time to time. I had one piece I played keep saying to me "you're good for nothin' " over and over again. Not joking. Sometimes the themes or a certain section will have a personality of an attitude that is distinctively unmusical. I just consider it all to be a further manifestation of the mental imbalance that caused me to become a pianist in the first place. Our minds do work in mysterious ways. Embrace it -- it's part of the ride.